Tonight, at 02.39 am on 26th October 2012, I declare that I really really miss Muhamad Aiman bin Yusoff Ramzi a lot. Dan saya tk tahu kenapa, sampai sekarang saya masih berharap. Berharap untuk bersama dengan dia lagi. Kita jumpa on 2009. Couple on 2011. And everything started to change on 2012. Yela, couple dekat dengan 3 tahun. Mana tk boring. Ye dak? :-( Awak, kita couple dah lama. Tapi pernah kita jumpa even just for once? Never. Okay jumpa tk pernah. Hm Skype? Never. We only communicate by phone. Texts and phone calls. That's all. And Facebook. It hurts me so bad. I get jealous when I see other couples meet up, taking photos together, wears the same tshirts. Why don't you put some efforts for me? Tell me, why? Is that too much to ask for? Saying "I love you" is not enough. You have to prove it. If you want something so bad, you have to fight for it right? Same thing with love. But have you ever fight for me? I bet no, you haven't.


Mula-mula couple : Bila tk reply texts, mula lah cemas. Bila call tk angkat, lagi lah gelabah. Mesti awak call/texts sampai saya reply texts or answer your calls. Bila merajuk, tk henti awak pujuk sampai lah saya cool down. Tapi sekarang? Nak dapat a text in a month pun sangat susah tahu :-( Call lagi lah. Jangan mimpi k. Saya tahu awak banyak problems. Dengan ayah awak lagi. Dengan mak awak lagi. Tapi, saya dah penat nak jaga hati awak. Hati saya? No one cares :-( After result Spm keluar, mood saya terus down. Result teruk. Parents saya buat tk tahu dekat saya. Saya ada awak dengan best friends saya je masa tu. Tapi awak? Awak pun larikan diri jugak. Dekat siapa lagi saya luahkan semua perasaan saya ni? :-( Saya nk awak. Saya nak awak yang pujuk saya. Saya nak awak tenangkan hati saya. Saya nak awak yang bagi saya semangat. Saya nak awak!! And after that, everything started to change. Kita jarang contact. A few months later, you got an offer from Politeknik. While me? I'm drowning alone. And yes, I started to keep a distance from you. Not wanting to reply your texts, not wanting to answer your calls. Dan saya mula rasa, our relationship has comes to the end. Jalan mati. Maybe, it's the best for both of us. But you'll never know how much I've cried every night thinking about it. I cried a lot because of you. Awak tahu tak, tak pernah saya sayang lelaki lain macam saya sayang awak. Tk pernah saya susah nak lupakan lelaki lain macam saya susah nak lupakan awak. Tk pernah! :-(